I should just give up and go back to normal….
I feel like I’m at a war with myself to get the simplest things done. I come up with a great idea and start to execute it, but I just berate myself before finishing it. It’s going through my mind as I write this, and it’s exactly why I know I should keep writing. Sometimes the best things that have ever happened to me have come in spite of these self doubts. Sometimes it gets the best of me and I don’t do it, but then I imagine what it could have been. I’m not going to let that happen this time.
I’m now on draft 3 to write something. It has been a really long time since I’ve posted out on the internet, and even longer since I’ve written something introspective. Why is this so hard to come up with something to write about?
My first draft was waaay too business and felt cheap and robotic. My second draft went off topic and into the weeds. I’m sitting in this place where I’ve got the motivation to write, but in prison to my thoughts. Why am I doing this? Why do I think that I would have something to offer? Would someone even want to read what I wrote? Do I have what it takes to come up with something meaningful?
I’m currently approaching the big 30. I’ve got a great job, a house, and friends and family who care about me. Life has been very good, but I’ve always had an itch to go after something more. At the top of 2020 I made a goal of trying something new like a YouTube channel, or a blog. I had been reading about the idea of passive-income, and putting time into my own business. It was an exciting thought, but quickly overwhelmed by those old doubts…uncertainty and fear. I gave up and went back to normal…
It wasn’t until later in the year the idea perked up again. I found out that Jake, the project manager from work, has been running various blogs for years. After coaxing the website address out of him, I started to read some of the things he wrote about, and I really liked his writing. The idea hit me, “Maybe I can learn something from him.”
Along the way we found that we had similar interests, and goals. Blogging is more than just a “Side-Hustle” but a way to help people. We want to improve lives with the content we share. We’ve set out to do that with our individual skills combined in a single blog.
So here I am writing my first post. It’s not perfect, and it won’t be the most eloquent thing you’ve ever read. I’m way out of my comfort zone, and while exciting, it’s going against every instinct to play it safe. Luckily Jake’s excitement about this project is contagious, and he has kept me motivated. Without him, I would have again…given up and gone back to normal.
If you have a few moments to spare, and don’t mind checking it out here’s the link:
I would love to hear your feedback so we can improve. I’m here to learn, and this is the first crack at it. I know there will be a lot to improve, but I’m proud of the work that we’ve started. (And yes I know I need to get some writing up there. There are some in the works.)
Nibbles and Crumbs